36 Weeks!

I can’t believe i haven’t done a post in ages, time has literally got away from me. Everytime I say i’m going to something distracts me.

So today i’m 36 weeks! My son was born at 37+1 so pretty much i’m on watch alert to see if anything might be signs of things happening soon eek.

I’ve been pretty lucky and I seem to breeze through this part of pregnancy without too many dramas. I’ve had a few back issues, few bouts of reflux, moments of tiredness etc gas has been my worst thing hahaha but its all been pretty good.

Now i’m hitting the bittersweet moments when all I want is to be holding my baby in my arms and finally meeting her but at the same time I want to savour the last few weeks of being pregnant as this is our last baby. its a happy sad moment that’s for sure.

I have most things ready for bub, her room is ready, my bag is packed and in car so its almost just a waiting game till d day! exciting and very nerve wrecking, I really just hope I don’t need stitches or anything this time!

24 Weeks today!

Things have seemed hectic the last few weeks, I don’t think I even updated post scan!!

Yesterday my little boy turned 3! it does seem ages ago now that I was holding him in my arms and now hes a crazy active 3 year old who runs around. He had the best weekend, a birthday party and a day out.

So it must be 4 weeks since my scan wowser, every time I’ve gone to sit down to write a post I’ve got distracted. All went well her measurements were all over the place big head, small arms and legs etc. I can’t imagine shes going to be a big baby. All that was picked up at the scan was a cyst in brain which is a soft marker but as nothing else was picked up we have been told they will probably just disappear before shes born.

Everything has been going well, I haven’t felt too bad, I had heaps of energy and was getting stuff done… we have even started to set up babies room but now post birthday weekend I’ve crashed and back to feeling flat.

I keep trying to plan ahead and have everything ready early this time considering our boy was born at 37 weeks she might arrive early too! My guess is she will arrive 11 days early and arrive on August 17 but we will see 🙂

Now its really sunk in that we are having a baby after the whole journey to get here its seemed like it would never happen but here I am 24 weeks pregnant. Hopefully everything continues to go well and I get through my work the next couple of months and have a little bit of rest time before she arrives (as much rest time as I can with a 3 year old!!)

19 Weeks – enjoying the cool weather change :)

19 Weeks today and when I think about my son being born at 37+1 it makes me realise I could easily be half way right now! eeek exciting!

We have started to move a few things around in preparation for getting rid of the playroom and turning it back in to a nursery which is really exciting. But first we need to get through the 20 week scan on Thursday! eeek. We had bad weather last week because of a cyclone from up north and it distracted me from my state of fear I was getting in about my scan. I’m counting down the days that’s for sure!

The weather has cooled down and I even have a jumper on today for this first time this year, its actually nice not being soo hot at the moment. bring on being cosy with my bump. I’m showing soo much sooner this time then with my son which is crazy. 19 weeks and I look well over 25 weeks .

All I want is for Thursday to go all good and then I can start really looking forward, decorating and all the fun things. for now i’m still that bit nervous that something isn’t right or something might be wrong. I guess i’ll never stop feeling that way this pregnancy.

Yesteray I did spew for the first time in 9 weeks! was very random. I can’t wait to hear my baby girl is okay! I have avoided announcing our news wider and if all is good on Thursday I think I finally will!

now hurry up days so its scan day hehe

17 weeks and the nerves are kicking in again!

17+2 weeks now!!! Yay!! Only 2 weeks till my 20 week scan and I’m starting to worry that something will be wrong. I really wish all  this worry didn’t happen after a miscarriage but it does and it’s hard to just get on and be positive! The last few weeks I’ve been pretty good but it’s hit me again. I’ve been too worried to make an announcement on Facebook but I think tonight I might finally do it. Pull the band aid off as hubby calls it. 

I had a gender scan the other week and bub want cooperating. Sitting on it’s bottom not moving, crossing legs the works, nothing would move it. I went back a few days later and this time success! She did make a comment that fluid levels looked good this time and bub was moving great so of course I now think did something not look right the other time?  Over analysing at its best!!  She did say she tells everyone to keep receipts in any clothing bought etc till the 20 week scan confirms gender. Ahh my brain over thinking is going to annoy me! 

In good news we are having a girl!!!! I’m over the moon! I always said I would be happy having a second boy but this is amazing and I’m pretty excited 🙂

13 1/2 weeks…2nd trimester!!

Been a busy week and haven’t updated! Last Thursday I had my 12 week scan and all was perfect!! Yay!

The next day I was packing up and we were off on our annual holiday away. Plenty of relaxing has been done and I haven’t been feeling too bad although I have a feeling as soon as we leave the nausea might be back! 

I’m still in shock that this is actually happening!! Come August we will have a new baby 🙂 exciting!! I’m still nervous about everything but holidays have helped calm me. 

Next week at 14 weeks we have my next ob appointment. It will probably be too early but it would be awesome if she could see the gender… Can’t wait to find out!! At the moment I think a girl and based on bub theory a few have said girl. Exciting to find out!

24 hours to go!!!

This time tomorrow morning I’ll be on my way to my 12 week scan. As of this morning I’ve really started getting anxious and worrying a little… What happens if all isn’t right, what happens if I get bad odds for downs? I think have every scenario covered in my head haha!! 

But I guess what happens if it’s all right? Will I finally be able to relax and really start to enjoy being pregnant and our holiday next week! 

It’s going to be a long day wondering and worrying. Atleast I have the fact that I’ve been feeling rubbish and it should be a really good sign! 

Please be all good bub!!!!!

11 weeks!!!

I can’t believe I’m writing that I’m 11 weeks today!!

2 weeks ago I had a little bit of red and brown spotting so I went to ob. She did a scan and all was perfect! It was a relief as it was pretty much the same point 9+1 that I found out about my mmc the other time. 

Last week was horrible from Sunday to Thursday I was feeling pretty sick, didn’t throw up luckily but still was rather draining. 

In 10 days it’s nuchal scan time, I can’t believe it’s almost here. Hopefully all is perfect and then I can relax. The following week we are away on holidays. We are off to our favourite beach Holiday location, it’s where hubby proposed so it’s pretty special place for us. 

Last year I was still going through my blighted ovum miscarriage at the time we were there, I was on antibiotics too so it was pretty bad holiday on my front. I wasn’t allowed to drink until the last day (who doesn’t need a drink when dealing with a miscarriage!!), I wasn’t allowed to swim so I just had to watch hubby and my son having a great time. I did however make some good sand castles! 

I’m really hoping this time it’s a perfect holiday. After our holiday we have our next ob appointment, hopefully after that all is good and we can announce 🙂 I do have a good feeling about it all but I’m scared to allow myself to get too excited.

Hopefully the next week goes fast and it’s NT scan day before I know it!

I can’t stop smiling!

Yesterday I had my ob appointment and scan. I had been feeling at ease the last few days about it all which was weird. yesterday morning the nerves started though!

Went into obs room a few bits of chit chat, said I was a little nervous when I didn’t feel sick etc so she decided to just do the scan to check all is good! I was watching very very closely I just wanted to see the flicker and there it was I could see it!! hubby didn’t see it straight away though but we were telling him it was there .. phew relief! then it was time to measure. measurements were spot on!! yay a couple were a day or so short but it was in my acceptable difference. the relief I felt, the happiness I felt it was amazing.

I was on cloud 9 all day, now it feels real, it feels like its going to happen!! 8+2 with a heart beat, surely its going to be a sticky one this time!!

12 week scan will be in another 4 weeks or so and then I can relax even more. I can’t believe its finally happening!!

Lightning doesn’t strike twice does it?

So two nights ago I was having some really awkward cramps right near my hip, they felt different to gas pains. I was having a little freak out yesterday so I decided to go to the gp. She was obviously concerned at the small chance of ectopic so she sent me for a scan.  Hubby came with me.

First was the abdominal scan which showed the heart beat and showed bub in the right place measuring at 6+1. Yesterday I should of been 6+6. Then it was time for the internal scan yay. It was the most painful internal scan I’ve had she was really pushing and making me sit up on my hands ouch. scan didn’t show much better best she measured was 6+2. I’m a bit devastated at that its almost taken away from seeing the heart beat.

I know the day I ovulated because I was charting. I was expecting to be maybe a couple days behind but not 4 or 5! With my first missed miscarriage my first scan I was measuring 6 days behind. The last couple of days has seen me start to loose my pregnancy symptoms. Friday / Saturday I had full on morning sickness (not spewing luckily) but now its pretty much non existent. bloating has decreased, gas is decreasing, nipples are still sensitive though.

My first ob appointment is next Thursday that’s 9 days away. i’m preparing myself that’s its going to happen again that there will no longer be a heart beat that something will once again be wrong with bub. I know its really bad thinking this way but why are my symptoms going again ahhhh. please please little bub prove me wrong next Thursday!!

3 weeks till scan!

Today i’m 5+2 .. time is going fast but also soo slow!! I got my hcg back last week and at 3+6 it was 157 which was a great number for that early.

I’ve been soo anxious certain its not going to work out, which I guess with two previous losses is totally normal. I’m finding it hard to think that this could all work out that in 3 weeks time we will see a bub measuring what it should with a good heart beat. I’m counting down and looking forward but I guess i’m just scared, scared of it failing and having to go through another loss.

So far this week I’ve had more symptoms start .. I’ve had bloating definitely starting (although not crazy much today). I have a gross metallic taste in my mouth, a bit of nausea when I haven’t eaten for awhile, I think my boobs are a bit bigger at certain times of the day but they are sore and sensitive. I’ve been starting to get that figetty tummy, that feeling when your sitting still and your belly just feels weird like something is in side it! besides that i’m waiting and hoping for nausea to kick in soon. They say its usually around 6 weeks so lets see what they next few days bring! It sounds really silly but I can’t wait to throw up! With my son it was only a few times that I ever did throw up. with my last two I never got to that point.  Also waiting for my skin to start going crazy, a few pimples have appeared in the last day or so but nothing crazy.

I wish there was a way of knowing all was going to be okay this time around, but instead its just a waiting game!