Today i’m 5+2 .. time is going fast but also soo slow!! I got my hcg back last week and at 3+6 it was 157 which was a great number for that early.
I’ve been soo anxious certain its not going to work out, which I guess with two previous losses is totally normal. I’m finding it hard to think that this could all work out that in 3 weeks time we will see a bub measuring what it should with a good heart beat. I’m counting down and looking forward but I guess i’m just scared, scared of it failing and having to go through another loss.
So far this week I’ve had more symptoms start .. I’ve had bloating definitely starting (although not crazy much today). I have a gross metallic taste in my mouth, a bit of nausea when I haven’t eaten for awhile, I think my boobs are a bit bigger at certain times of the day but they are sore and sensitive. I’ve been starting to get that figetty tummy, that feeling when your sitting still and your belly just feels weird like something is in side it! besides that i’m waiting and hoping for nausea to kick in soon. They say its usually around 6 weeks so lets see what they next few days bring! It sounds really silly but I can’t wait to throw up! With my son it was only a few times that I ever did throw up. with my last two I never got to that point. Also waiting for my skin to start going crazy, a few pimples have appeared in the last day or so but nothing crazy.
I wish there was a way of knowing all was going to be okay this time around, but instead its just a waiting game!
We’ve had and exciting long weekend but now its back to work tomorrow.
On Saturday was my husbands birthday, first up we had another dating scan to go to. Its hard to not be a bit nervous about it especially since it was my husbands birthday as didn’t want to hear anything bad on that day. It was great, we got to see how much bigger everything is and we could actually this time see the beginnings of our baby and yolk sac etc. Was even more exciting that we got to see the heartbeat. It was crazy just how big it seemed considering the tiny size of the baby the heartbeat seemed huge! From the scan two weeks earlier we thought I was going to be 7 weeks on Saturday but its now changed and I was 6 weeks 4 days, so tomorrow i’m 7 weeks. Was a great start to the day.
During the last week morning sickness has started and all of a sudden I’ve been put of food. Eating breakfast is so normal for me but now I just don’t feel like it and during the day at work dry biscuits have helped me get through the morning. I just keep telling myself at least its just nausea and not throwing up. Hopefully it only lasts for a couple more weeks and then i’ll be back to eating normal and actually eating fast, it seems to take me forever to get food down at the moment.
We always said we would keep the baby sex a surprise but now all of a sudden we are deciding if we actually want to find before hand. decisions decisions .. we will have plenty of those in the next 7 1/2 months!
First obstetrician appointment this Friday .. don’t have a clue what to expect!