Today i’m 5+2 .. time is going fast but also soo slow!! I got my hcg back last week and at 3+6 it was 157 which was a great number for that early.
I’ve been soo anxious certain its not going to work out, which I guess with two previous losses is totally normal. I’m finding it hard to think that this could all work out that in 3 weeks time we will see a bub measuring what it should with a good heart beat. I’m counting down and looking forward but I guess i’m just scared, scared of it failing and having to go through another loss.
So far this week I’ve had more symptoms start .. I’ve had bloating definitely starting (although not crazy much today). I have a gross metallic taste in my mouth, a bit of nausea when I haven’t eaten for awhile, I think my boobs are a bit bigger at certain times of the day but they are sore and sensitive. I’ve been starting to get that figetty tummy, that feeling when your sitting still and your belly just feels weird like something is in side it! besides that i’m waiting and hoping for nausea to kick in soon. They say its usually around 6 weeks so lets see what they next few days bring! It sounds really silly but I can’t wait to throw up! With my son it was only a few times that I ever did throw up. with my last two I never got to that point. Also waiting for my skin to start going crazy, a few pimples have appeared in the last day or so but nothing crazy.
I wish there was a way of knowing all was going to be okay this time around, but instead its just a waiting game!
This time 2 years ago I was pregnant with bub number 1. Now I’ve found out number 2 is on the way!
Same as last time I thought it was going to take awhile. This time I thought because of everything that had happened in December my body just wouldn’t be as accepting to being pregnant again but turns out I was wrong. It was a our second cycle trying and I was charting my temperatures so I was pretty good with not taking any tests. On Monday I thought this is it Aunt Flo is going to arrive and we’ll be on to our third cycle. I was wrong, nothing happened on Monday. By Tuesday morning I decided I was going to test. It was within a few seconds I saw it start to appear and there it was a positive test!
Working on the dates i’m pretty sure I am i’m 5 weeks today. One thing I have now remembered is the stress and worry over the first 12 months, just wishing for that magic 12 weeks to be here already but at the same time just wanting to enjoy it all again. I went to the doctors this morning expecting to need a blood test to confirm it but no instead I have to wait till I got to my obstetrician to get that all confirmed in a few weeks. Its going to be a long wait!!
Yesterday I was getting worried as I hadn’t felt any symptoms really but today they are back. I have nausea and a bit of reflux or both yay. last week the morning sickness properly kicked in at 6 weeks so it will be interesting to see what happens this time.
I’m excited and nervous of the next few weeks but once we hear that heartbeat there will be a bit of relief. I can’t believe number 2 is on the way its very exciting! Due date is 4th of July but as this time around i’m going to need a C-section who knows when due date will be probably anytime from the 13th of June since bub number 1 arrived 3 weeks early. There will be approx. 25 months between the two of them which hopefully is a good age.